I've felt a little restless lately. Like I'm not quite sure what I'm doing with my life. Yeah, I've got a great job, awesome friends and a comfortable life...but something just feels off. It all began when I turned 31. I don't even like to say those words - thirty ONE. I loved being 30, it was awesome. I was thirty, flirty and thriving. ;) And running better than I ever had. But now, I am no longer that fun, carefree 30 year old. Now I'm 31 and just...O. L. D. (Just so we're clear, age is relative just as time and distance is relative. I wrote a post about that...)
Here's the thing: my friends that are my age are married, most of them with 1-2 kids. I can't just randomly call them up one night and see if they want to go have dinner and watch a movie. They have responsibilities and a spouse to think of. So I end up hanging out with people who are much younger than me. And while I enjoy that, keeps me feeling young!, I'm not 25 any more. I want different things, I am at a totally different life stage than they are.
Okay....now what? Where do I go from here? Where do I fit in? I know this may come as a surprise to you...but I feel most like I'm doing what I need to do when I am out on the roads, racking up the miles. It's focused, there is a goal to achieve, I am in control. Not so with actual life. As much as I am in control of my training, I know that God is in control of my life. And most of the time, I'm very glad and I want to follow where I feel He's leading me. But what about the times where I don't know where I'm supposed to go or where I belong? I suppose this is just one of those times.
Speaking of being in control and training...(since I know that's why you read this blog, not to hear my ramblings about life...) this week has been super productive! I didn't get a chance to run on either Sunday or Monday but took full advantage of my reflective gear and got a load of mileage packed into three days. Tuesday I ran with a friend on some back roads in Lexington. Note to self: buy a headlamp. It was rainy and dark on curvy roads that we didn't know so well. That slowed us down a little...as did the fact that I ate too many almonds before heading out. Another note to self: don't eat almonds pre-run. Uuuugh. Total mileage: 3.3
Wednesday had me out and about in Wakefield. It was clear and calm but also quite chilly! To get some good mileage in I ran through my neighborhood, into town, around the lake and back the way I came. I got some good hills in at the beginning and end of the run. I was shooting for 9miles but as I was on my way home, the wind picked up and the temperature dropped. It was freeeeeezing. Total mileage: 8.44
Yesterday was a quick jaunt along Mass Ave in Lexington. I usually run along the bike path (which follows Mass Ave) but since it's dark and I don't carry Mace, I figured it'd be better to run along the road. :) It was a most enjoyable run! Not too cold or windy and no rain. Delightful. Total mileage: 4.06
I'm also excited to report that my Pre-Training is almost complete. In one month I begin Training. I can hardly wait...